Pulchritudinous

                                          PUL-CHRI-TU-DIN-OUS

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            Adjective

-Beautiful

What defines beauty? The world has twisted and turned our perception of what beauty is and what it isn’t. grasping at any idea of beauty I can get. Hoping that maybe just maybe someone will notice me. Trying to decipher what true beauty is while

Drowning in the expectations this world has that we must be put together, presetful, and poise/without flaw. feeling like the accusation’s expectations and alterations will soon just cave in on me. Always being told to blend in to not attract attention/be bold be brave stand out. Speak softly don’t offend anyone/speak up let your voice be heard. Wear it tight and let them see what they are missing/ it happened because you were wearing something tight. Be yourself show your emotions let them see the scars/ be happy You should smile more. Don’t eat that, keep it slim/eat more, they like curves. What defines beauty?

A Rabbit trail to the coffee shop

-Abecedarius

As I sit in a small quaint coffee shop in an unknown town I try to

brush aside the stress of life that has enclosed me.  The song

Colourway by Novo Amor plays in my head as I look through the

dingy finger-smudged widow that holds the cold snowy air from coming inside.

I hear a mother

engage with her daughter about what kind of gelato she is going to pick. It

makes me think of my mom. Makes me think of her red

frizzy hair that smells like coconuts.

Going from state to state these past few months I have grown

 homesick. I miss the

intense sunshine of Arizona.

Juggling the unknown of traveling has been an adventure in and of itself. I

start to long forthe day when I will

Know who I am and who I want to become. I start to

Long for someone to waste time with

Maybe someone who will bring some

Normalcy to my stress enclosed life.

Optimistic about where I am but still

Pursuing something greater.

Quite frankly aren’t we all just out here trying to pursue something greater?

something that will set our souls on fire. Doing everythinglife has to offer and

Regretting nothing. And consistently

Striving for greatness. As I wrap up

this rabbit trail of thoughts I look around just a few more times. I struggle to

find the

unique words to describe the aroma of the house-roasting expresso beans, and

the glow this

venue has under the fluorescent lights. The same golden glow of my childhood

home. I    

Wonder who lives in that house now. What memories are they making?

Xaern the fact that I could sit here and remanence and daydream forever, but I

am only this

Young for a little while. So, I pack up my books and my thoughts grab my

coffee, and find a scene of

Zeal for what the next unknown town will bring.

Hammock Faith

Faith is easy when you are sitting in a hammock. You can’t feel the ground fall from under you when you are in a hammock. But where does your faith rest when you stumble out and feel the world start quaking again? Surrounding your self mentally and emotionally with the Spirt will make you way more resilient to the temptations and struggles of the world than going to any excluded peaceful place in the world. Sit with the Lord. Meditate on His Word so when those shaky times do come you can stand firm on the truth we know is true. Not saying don’t sit in a hammock… actually a great place to start your time with God 🫶🏼